Through...

Sometimes, i get the feeling that life is bigger than we are.

There is so much that's going on that we cannot possibly predict.

Or prepare for.

I'd like to think that we have two choices then.

We can fear for the unknown, and choose to run away from it,

or we can take up the courage that we so often lack, and make a change.

Life, as many learned people once said, is simply too short.

We should not waste our mind, time and effort on some things that are simply not worth wasting on.

Instead, the energy should be focused and channelled into doing something good.

Something good for others, so that people may benefit from it.

And something good for us.

For ourselves.

So that we may benefit from it.

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I have recently ill-treated myself.

I've allowed myself to be wasted away.

and worst of all, I've knowingly and willingly permit others to hurt me.

You know, I've had many friends who approached me of late,

asking me if anything was wrong with me.

That i looked hollow. Lost. Insecure.

Possibly even downright depressed.

Most common comment of all though, was...

"You've lost the spark in your eyes..."

To that, i have no defense against.

It is true. I felt it in my bones too.

But, but....

Perhaps, after all the strife that i've been through,

i'm finally coming to terms with myself.

I finally understood what it was that I truly need.

and more importantly, what it was that I truly DON'T need.

So, thank you to whoever it was that so conveniently comes into my life and throws it so completely off balance that I am still reeling from the effects now,

and thank you too for making such an inconspicuous exit out of it.

I'm through, and I'm freaking fantabulous.