Who cares?!

Haha... just realized that my last entry was written on October... Quite awhile ago huh?

Was thinking of kick starting my new entry with my work life... Well, you know how interesting that could get right??

But then i thought...

WHO CARES? (i mean really...)

So... scrap that... Moving on...

I thought of sharing the joy i had with the fish i reared...
(e.g. the babies have colors on their body now!!)

Then again... i thought...

WHO CARES? (again... really i mean...)

Next up... i thought of writing bout the recent places that i go... which isn't much to begin with mind you... (i.e. Malacca, Melaka, and 马六甲)

However... it struck me again...

WHO CARES? (seriously...)

I did watch some interesting movies of late... One of which happens to be ENCHANTED. Seeing as how intriguing that movie was, i thought of sharing it here with you all...

But... Ok, by now, you guys should know the drill...

C'mon... Let me hear you say it... One... Two... Three!

WHO CARES! (thank you...)

So... we've got Work, Hobby, and Places to go pretty much summed up.

That should leave us with the magic THREE...

Let's continue by Friends...

Haven't been seeing a lot of me friends of late... Guess everyone's getting busier with their life. Some of them might even be pumping water out of their houses... Hmmm...

Ok... as for the rest of me friends... e.g. Edward, Wanxin, Zham, Yvonne, etc etc...

Well... i know them... but you don't...

So... even if i did update my entry about them...

WHO CARES?!

One down... two to go... Next up ---> FAMILY.

Ok, cept for me Bro being back from Perth and us all going up to KL this weekend to have a grand royal house moving party for my beloved sis in which she has already hired a truck and an indonesian labor to move all her stuff which leaves me dumbfounded as to why i'm even asked there to help move her stuff no thanks to my dad's overgenerous love for her and thank you i know this is a super duper long sentence which by the way was intentional and again thank you cuz i know how great my english is which incidentally leads me to another point being...

WHO CARES??!!

Lastly... and most importantly... my LOVE LIFE.

Now THIS, is vital. Of UTMOST importance... and one where EVERYONE is interested.

and EVERYONE CARES.

Sadly... the one and only thing that people is interested in...

I have nothing to share nor update.

Hahahhaa...

So thank you for spending (wasting) your time reading my pointless entry.

Hahhaa.... Have a great day!!

Through...

Sometimes, i get the feeling that life is bigger than we are.

There is so much that's going on that we cannot possibly predict.

Or prepare for.

I'd like to think that we have two choices then.

We can fear for the unknown, and choose to run away from it,

or we can take up the courage that we so often lack, and make a change.

Life, as many learned people once said, is simply too short.

We should not waste our mind, time and effort on some things that are simply not worth wasting on.

Instead, the energy should be focused and channelled into doing something good.

Something good for others, so that people may benefit from it.

And something good for us.

For ourselves.

So that we may benefit from it.

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I have recently ill-treated myself.

I've allowed myself to be wasted away.

and worst of all, I've knowingly and willingly permit others to hurt me.

You know, I've had many friends who approached me of late,

asking me if anything was wrong with me.

That i looked hollow. Lost. Insecure.

Possibly even downright depressed.

Most common comment of all though, was...

"You've lost the spark in your eyes..."

To that, i have no defense against.

It is true. I felt it in my bones too.

But, but....

Perhaps, after all the strife that i've been through,

i'm finally coming to terms with myself.

I finally understood what it was that I truly need.

and more importantly, what it was that I truly DON'T need.

So, thank you to whoever it was that so conveniently comes into my life and throws it so completely off balance that I am still reeling from the effects now,

and thank you too for making such an inconspicuous exit out of it.

I'm through, and I'm freaking fantabulous.

Dilemma~~

As any normal working day, i woke up at seven plus this morning.

Though I was reluctant to get me sleepy body out of the bed, work calls.

*sigh, how sad have we all become to be slaves of work...*

So, off to the wash room i went.

Did the usual washup thingy, meaning brushing me teeth, washing me face, shaving etc. etc.

Then comes the crucial part - Shitting.

This process is usually accompied by some newspaper/novels reading, to which this morning was no exception...

BUT THEN...

As I was in the midst of revelling the finer points of structured defecation, I felt my world spin.

What the hell~~~~ is it just me or IS the world spinning????

I told meself: "Calm down... take a deep breath... everything's OK! You're just hallucinating!"

But then the World kept spinning.

It was then that it hit me~~~ THE BLOODY QUAKE YESTERDAY NIGHT!!!

This must be the aftershock!!!

...

CRAP.

Now i'm in a dilemma.

Much as i wished to evacuate the building, I still have unfinished business to do.

Now THAT, I can honestly tell you, was a tough call.

To evacuate, save your life, and have shit dangling halfway between your rectum and anus,

OR...

To finish your business, feel terribly great, and face the possibility of being crushed under tons of debris.

I picked the latter.

LOL~~~

Lies...

I wish i was a stronger person...

To make decisions that matter...

To seize life for my own.

But i'm a coward at heart.

I hide... I run... and I escape from the truth.

My life is a lie.

I am a lie.

Its all a lie.

I've always asked myself if i was a decent person,

that everything i do would mean something to someone...

but i guess i was naive.

Nothing i did ever matter.

I never mattered.

I'm just a tool, used by everyone.

Even by the one i love.

I'm tired.

I'm really tired.

I just...

wanna rest.

Temporary Out of Service...

Just had an operation done on me left eye...

so i'm pretty much left crippled for the next few weeks.

Can't be writing too much, cuz it puts a relatively large strain on me eye.

So, till a few weeks later,

Adius!!

Stay Tune~~~

Excerpt from The Holiday...

Had this movie for a long time now...

just haven't the time or heart to really watch it.

As it turns out, this movie was FANTASTIC!

Had a lot of laughs, and an equal amount of tears as i watched it all out.

Below is a part of the movie that really got me...

Nevermind the reason, but i thought it was beautifully scriptted.

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"... I understand a feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible,

and how it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you...

and it doesn't matter how many haircuts you get, or gyms you join,

or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your friends,

you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could've misunderstood...

And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were HAPPY? And some times you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door."

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"And after all that, however long that may be, you go somewhere new...

and you'll meet people who makes you feel worthwhile again,

and little pieces of your soul will finally come back...

And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you... wasted,

that will eventually, begin to fade."

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For some reason, that made me weep.

Such a weeper.

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My Good Friend...

People who knows me well would know that I don't speak vulgarities.

Even when i'm super mad, i would not utter a single obscenity.

Hence, it doesn't really comes as a surprise when I've been BEGGED countless times by others to speak Vulgarities just to apease their morbid sense of curiosity.

My answer is always the same ---> BIG FAT NO.

That said, I do not really object to others using it.

I mean of course i would prefer it if they don't, but even if they do, who am i to stop them right?

So then, i had this good friend of mine, whom ALWAYS made me LMAO (laugh my ass off) with his florish use of profanities.

Couple days ago, he was inviting me for a birthday party of his which happens to fall on this saturday.

This is how the conversation started...

[Dooo dooo... Dooo doo...] <----- my mobile ringing u dump ass... hahha...

"Hello?"

"Eh Fucker!"

"Hahahahahaha... Yes boss, what can i do for you?"

"You gonna be in KL this saturday or not?"

"Dunno wor, not too sure..."

"Fucker... fucking come up la."

"Why? What's up?"

"Fuck la. Its my birthday. Fucking jibai~~ We gonna have bbq with us fellow Patricians(my fellow s'pore boarding school mates) "

"Oh... ok... i'll try my best to come la..."

"Eh Fuck you la! You better come or i'll fucking screw you man!"

"Hhahahahahahahahaha...."

"Eh, who else did i miss?"

I then proceeded to mention a few more names, most of which he has forgotten to invite, so he told me to sms him the numbers after we finish our conversation.

"Eh jibai, u better come k. If i don't fucking see you you're dead!"

"Hahahhahahahahahaa... see how la."

"FUCK YOU LA!"

"hahahahahahahahahahahaha..."

That pretty much ended our conversation.

So then, after couple of minutes, i sms him a business card.

This is then the sms replies.

[Fuck. u send me an empty page la. Fucker.]

[hahaha... i'll resend.]

[Cheers idiot. Make sure u come]

[I will definitely come if i can. Wouldn't wanna miss seeing u get keropok *a tradition whereby people whack the birthday boy on his back*]

[Fuck! If u come i make sure u'll get dumped into my fish pond!]

[hahahahahahahaha...]

Such an endearing friend... hahahahaha...

Even though he's probably one of the most foul-mouthed person i've ever known, but he's non-the-less one of the most humorous person in the world for me.